One year ago I made the most challenging decision of my entire life to date. More challenging than my decision to get a divorce, more challenging than raising a child on my own....I challenged myself to make a change in my life.
My older sister would ask how I was doing early on in the midst of this change and I kept telling her I wasn't happy with my decision. Her exact words to me were "Give it one year & reevaluate where you are and see how you feel."
So I gave it a year....
In that year I discovered the pain that comes with such a huge change never really goes away, you get used to it and find a place for it.
I discovered no matter how much I beg, plead, bribe, kick, scream or cry, life will never stop moving & wait for me to catch up.
I also learned the art of starting over....my heart is still beating & I didn't actually die.
I did eventually come to appreciate and go along with this new change. Once I allowed myself to let go of what was and embrace what is, I stood a little taller.
I learned that while I HATE change (as we all do) I adapted well to my surroundings and easily found things and people that I became aquatinted & comfortable with.
The joy, laughter and peace I had been so desperately lacking was being restored because I stopped and allowed the change to take place.
I learned to appreciate what was in front of me & while I'm still playing catch up, I enjoy the moments. Those sweet precious moments I took for granted.
Yes change can be terrifying.
Yes change can make you feel like you will never recover or adapt or ever move forward...change is still good.
Even if it's a life changer or small insignificant change that only you will notice...do it anyway.
Give it a year....it'll be the best thing you can do for you.
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