Am I enough??

I am enough, right? 

Enough for what? Enough for who? Often times we don't feel like we are enough.....enough for our partners, enough for our children, enough for our families or friends, enough for our job, or even enough for ourselves. We feel the need to do more, say more, to be more & to change who we are in order to be enough for someone or something else. 

I often find myself wondering if I'm ever going to be enough. Enough of a decent mother for my daughter. A good enough daughter or sister.  If I will I ever be enough as I am to be someone's other half again or if I will ever be a good enough human being for me. 

I know constantly bettering yourself is good but knowing yourself, who you are as you are, knowing that you are enough, is an entirely different task.

I constantly seem to find myself at the corner of my very own "Grey Street" where I have to push myself into a path of change. I get this is a part of our life cycle but it can be tiring when you are consistently questioning if the road less traveled was the right choice and if you are good enough for this journey. 

I am faced with accepting who I am and where I am in life is just fine. It's enough. 

There will be people or things that will come into your life and walk right back out because you aren't enough for them and while it hurts like hell, it's okay.  Some will always take or expect a little more then their fair share because they don't understand the meaning of meeting you right where you are. Leaving you with the task of going all the way & then take/want/need a little more when you get there.

I am learning I am always willing to give more of myself, thinking eventually it will be enough, even if it means losing who I am in the process and that's not okay. 

The train stops here....

You are more than enough. 

I am more than enough. 

Those who truly know and love you know that you are enough. They make it worth the growing pains of being who it is that you are and continue to become. 

This chapter in my life is far from over & this road less traveled is more than just an adventure filled with beautiful scenic routes. It's about learning from my mistakes, not looking back and knowing I am enough no matter where I am or where this road takes me. And while the "pleaser" in me finds it hard to keep myself from going back to fix things or trying to be more than I am, I realize I will only continue to sell myself short. 

I have to remind myself I'm enough and it wouldn't be fair to myself or anyone else I encounter to go back down that path that was actually never enough for me.