The deep dark cave.

It had been hidden in a deep dark cave for so long I had forgotten it even existed. Then, one day, poof -without warning that cave was not so dark anymore. It was bright as day and all it's contents came fluttering out. It literally jumped out of the cave, onto the ground and exploded into pure happiness. Not on purpose, not with intent, not for any other reason than what I can only assume or hope was just because, in fact I am certain of it's "just because" status, I have to be.  I think reading into it would probably lead to the demise of my heart and my belief that everything happens for a reason. So instead I will steadily repeat to myself to take joy in it, love and live in it for just a little bit longer...savor it, learn from it but also prepare myself for the day when I may have to let it go (again).   

As I continue to grow and mature a little more, at the age of 37, I am learning to deal with things on a different level (or try anyway). I think if you deal with it head on and not shove it back in the cave there is a better chance of survival as an adult verses when you were, let's say, 18 or 19 perhaps? When you didn't know or begin to dream of the woman you'd become. When your insecurities took the wheel of your heart and mind. 

I realize at this point I may just be kidding myself but I choose to believe the cave was opened for a reason and it has a purpose. I am willing to learn what that purpose is and hopefully it will add some depth to my life. Keep me thinking, growing and moving in a direction that can only be beneficial to me. However, this time I will not be so naive like I was at 19 and guard my heart but in the same breath not hold back....

I love that the cave was opened and no matter its purpose I'm excited to find out what it is.