No matter how painful or how easy... it's possibly one of the bravest things one can choose to do.
So all I can do is surrender & believe I (we) fought the good fight but with that to say what's in my heart and write this letter.
A love letter.
I sit here missing you, missing us...remembering the way things used to be and realizing things will never be as they once were. I am learning to be strong, not for you but for me & our girl. I'm realizing letting it go and giving it to God is all I have left to maybe one day in the distant future save the beautiful life we created together. You have become one of the most important people in my life and suddenly switching gears to start again has been tough but I am trying to understand the importance of letting you fall, letting you pick yourself up and dust yourself off. I know the demons you battle are bigger than us both but I know that I serve a Mighty God and He IS bigger than the demons you battle but that only you can turn it over to Him, trust in Him and can become the man He has intended you to be. I will love you from a distance, I will continue to support you and be the friend you need from a distance. Wow, I just called you my friend and it pained me to say that to the man who just a few months ago I was making plans to spend the rest of my life with.....my heart aches and I know yours does too.
As the days and weeks continue to move forward I know there will be lots of outside questions, lots of sympathy, anger, judgement, tears and maybe even some laughs, I hope that it will remind you of all the good things that it stems from....from those who love you, that I love you and only want and see the best in you, who see the best in US.
My promise to you from this day forward is to love you unconditionally and without judgement and whole heartedly continue to believe in you because I know the man who lives inside of you is great.
You will forever be the love of my life.
I love you.
Me
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"Stay or Leave"
-Dave Matthews
Maybe different but remember
Winters warm where you and I
Kissing whiskey by the fire
With the snow outside
And when the summer comes
In the river
Swims at midnight
Shiver cold
Touch the bottom
You and I
With muddy toes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did
Wake up naked drinking coffee
Making plans to change the world
While the world is changing us
It was good good love
You used to laugh under the covers
Maybe not so often now
But the way I used to laugh with you
Was loud and hard
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did
So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon
Hey, isnt it strange how we change Everything we did
Did I do all that I should
That I coulda done
Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be
You and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you left me
What day is this
Besides the day you went
So what to do
With the rest of the day's afternoon
Well isn't it strange how we change
Everything we did
Did I do all that I could
Remember we used to dance
And everyone wanted to be you and me
I want to be too
What day is this
Besides the day you went babe
What day is this
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